I TRY to check out of heart patient. Even though I say to myself I am going to step out of it, eat what I want and not worry about my salt, cholesterol or such, the truth is that it is never far from my mind. In everything I do, every day in life, it is never far. I blame myself for some of this because I have chosen to educate other women and I have chosen to advocate for funds for research so some day other women do not have to worry about heart disease and stroke . Some days when I am reading the grim statistics on my chances for a second heart attack, cardiac arrest or stroke because I have already suffered and survived the widowmaker, I wonder if it is worth my personal stress to be so outspoken. With all I know about the signs and symptoms, would I recognize and survive again?
On days when I wonder if it is worth my personal stress, I think of all of the amazing women I have met that are survivors too and I know that despite it all, I would not want to be without these ladies in my life--each one beautiful and amazing and with an equally intriguing story. Each one of them knows my struggle---although you can pretend for two weeks, you will never be well and will always be a heart or stroke patient.
My friend Jen, my heart sister (who I have never met other than online but hope to someday!) wrote a fabulous piece on finding well. For those of you that read this that are sick, in someway chronically ill, I know you will appreciate this so I wanted to share! From Jen -- Be Well.
Happy summer to you and I hope each and everyone of you find your two weeks of peace whatever that is to you! Cheers!
