I volunteered at a Go Red event last Tuesday night. It was there that I met Christi, a fellow Go Red Ambassador. We talked and I told her I was new to volunteering and the Go Red Ambassadors. I explained that it was all too new last year for me to really feel like I wanted to shout my story to anyone that would listen.
What she said to me surprised me. She so freely said that the reason I didn't want to take part in any of sharing my story on this level was due to the anger stage. I have always felt the grief of losing what my life was like before my heart attack but I have never really thought of it as being angry.
I came home and pondered the anger angle. I realized it really was a combination of anger and grief. I was really angry. I didn't even wear red on Go Red day in 2012. The anger has faded and the grief is gone. It is replaced by a sense of purpose. The purpose of sharing my story so that others will take their health more seriously. The purpose of sharing my journey so that others can survive like I did. There is still a lot of searching the reasons but these two seem like a pretty good starting point.
In the spirit of sharing my story I also volunteered at Kansas City's Half Day for Your Heart Luncheon last Friday. It was a great time and I met some more amazing ladies. Being a Go Red Ambassador is just what I needed. I am with women who understand what I've experienced. It is very refreshing!
My great friend Brian was at the lunch and it was fun to have a good friend of mine there:
Next up, Greater Kansas City Heart Walk!