After the walk I posted a post on Facebook because I hung around just long enough to do an interview with KCTV 5. This is what I posted:
"There is simply no way to look good for a KCTV5 survivor interview after being up since before 5 and being sweaty with hat hair after the walk!!"
Promptly, I had two friends that I treasure very much reply:
" I dunno- I think "alive" is a pretty good look..." and " I read this post earlier and couldn't text while driving to KC! I also instantly thought you being alive and here to tell your story will always make you beautiful! Even with hat hair and sweat! I've had to keep reminding myself when I look at my several scars and bald head that I'm so happy to be here and alive!!!I keep telling myself I won't complain about my hair again when I just get some... But we are women! We just don't like hat hair:) looks like it was a wonderful day of celebrating!"
Both of these responses provided perspective. Sometimes even when you are chronically ill, you lose perspective. The perspective that not much matters other than being alive. I love these ladies for keeping it real. This is the perspective I needed to be reminded of, especially since the second response was from my high school friend that has been battling breast cancer. I really was happy to be able to share my story!
Last weekend after the walk, I decided I am not making that progress towards skinny bitch and if I intend to get there, it would be in my best interest to stop eating out and get back in the kitchen. If you have been along for the ride since the beginning, you know what danger this puts me in. That domestically challenged thing indeed reared its ugly head as I was chopping veggies. It reared its ugly head in the form of the knife right through my finger. Now, this is bad enough normally but I take blood thinners. The result of a sharp knife coming in deep contact with your finger while you are on blood thinners is that your kitchen ends up looking like a crime scene. All I can say is at least the fire department did not have to come as well! If you are wondering, I was making a very yummy vegan enchilada bake. I left the cheese off to make it vegan.
Never one to be deterred, I am back at it in the kitchen again this weekend. Now, to avoid the crime scene look, this is my solution:
Yes, that is right, the grocery store sells them already cut! Now that does not keep me from the possibility of needing the fire department while I cook this weekend, but at least they won't think there is a murder as well as a fire if they have to come.
I am making the enchilada bake again and cutting up fruit--watermelon and cantaloupe. I may not be totally safe from the crime scene look or the ER:
I hope you are all having a great weekend and I wish for you a weekend free of kitchen misadventures!