When I originally started this blog, I had a tab for recipes. I intended to become some kind of vegan chef and I was going to share all of my fabulous recipes. There are several flaws to this idea that I had.
First and foremost I am constantly multitasking and easily lose track of things on a hot stove and in a hot oven. I really burn a lot of things and I risk significant injury. I am the one that stabbed a fork through my thumb not paying attention when I was stabbing holes in a potato that I was going to bake. Second, I don't follow recipes that well. Usually I can't imagine that was the way it was intended to taste when it was done and if it was intended to taste that way, then I picked out a recipe that really sucked! Third forces me to let you in on a little secret--I can actually cook. I cook just a few things and I cook them really well. The problem is, in no way shape or form are they something someone who has had a heart attack should be eating--they are comfort and artery clogging foods. Not to mention full of salt just from the ingredients without adding any extra. I make a mean lasagna, kick ass spaghetti sauce, awesome beef stroganoff, Texas sheet cake to die for and some really good fudge and chocolate chip cookies.
Because our forecast called for snow and ice I decided that I should eat it up really well before the end of the year and I got some crazy domestic whim that I would cook them all while it snowed and iced. So, Friday after work, off to my little grocery store in town I went. Honestly after a day at work I just want to get home and I don't want to stop on my hour drive anywhere in Kansas City so I support the grocery store in my little town that costs more:
I don't make a list, I get out each recipe and walk through the store with it until I have everything I need in my cart and then I take out the next and do the same thing. My few recipes I can make well are almost too old to be dragging around the store. They are taped back together and some have my grandmas handwriting on them:
I started cooking at 8:30 yesterday morning and cooked all day. We now have Beef Stroganoff, Lasagne, Spanish rice, breakfast casserole, chocolate fudge, peanut butter fudge and six batches of chocolate chip cookies. The dog could hardly believe her good fortune that there were actually crumbs on the kitchen floor:
When I first started this blog, it was going to be this great health blog. However, it has morphed into an account of my day to day emotional journey that this heart attack thing has sent me on. If you are looking for a health blog about heart attacks and women with heart disease it really isn't here. I post a little of that stuff but not much. If you found me and that is what you are really looking for, you certainly want to visit Jen Thorson at My Life In Red. In fact I am in her new post--number 9 for my guest post last February, Heart Attack Stun. She has a wealth of health information that you will find helpful. You should also visit Carolyn Thomas at Heart Sisters. She has a great blog with great info and one of my favorites is "We are all patients." No, you're not. I would so love to give the ass first cardiologist I had a lesson in this! These are the two places you should visit for the health stuff. Jen even has that recipe section that I so hilariously thought I would have here:). I found these wonderful ladies as I searched the internet frantically to find out about what had just happened to me and what I could expect my life to be like. Here they were, such relief jumping from my computer screen in the middle of the night when I was afraid that I would die if I went to sleep. It would be my great joy to meet them one day!
Instead, this has turned into my only semi-successful chronicled journey to become more healthy. If anything, I learn that what I used to see as so easy is most certainly not. So, if you have found me because you have googled women and heart disease and are looking to find out that you are not alone in your emotional journey, you are in the right spot.. I put it out there in hopes you find yourself in this and know that you are not alone just as I was able to find out in a time that I certainly felt alone that I was not. There were indeed other women my age and even younger that had experienced exactly what I had.
I start the journey anew on January 1. I'm not going to put out there the number I'm currently at, but the number I strive for is about 70lbs less than the current one. Mostly I won't put it out because I used to have this just for me and my family and my lifetime friends and now I have the internet. I get somewhere around 500 hits a week on this blog. People find my blog and read it and send me messages about their story. So, I'll share the story whether successful or as has been the reality lately, not so successful. The one thing I will promise never to do is post my hardly successful vegan recipes for you:)!
I have a new find and that is this great blog, MindBodyGreen. I love reading it every day. So happy reading and a very, very Merry Christmas to all!